I went to church today. I woke up with a place inside that wanted God and fellowship so deeply. I love church. I don't go so often, because I live most of my life as if the whole world is my church. I pray all the time, wherever I am. I am the temple I need and go to most often. Today however, I went to church.

The service was so perfectly aligned with what I needed to hear on letting go and trusting in the unkown! Somewhere in the midst of it I got a hit that it was time for me to start reading "A Course in Miracles." I'd visited it once or twice in the past, but never really felt fully called as I did today. Synchronically, when I went downstairs to the church's lending library, there sat a big fat full teacher's version of A Course in Miracles, ready to go home with me.

A few nuggets I pulled out in the first read:

"When you have become willing to hide nothing, you will not only be willing to enter into communion but you will understand peace and joy."

"The escape from darkness involves two stages:
1. The recognition that darkness can not hide
2. The recognition that there is nothing you want to hide, even if you could. This step brings escape from fear."

"Recognize your errors and choose to abandon them."

"Every aspect of fear comes from upside down perception. The more truly creative devote their efforts to correcting perceptual distortions. The neurotic to compromise and the psychotic tries to escape by establishing the certain truth of his own errors. He is the most difficult to free because he is consistent in his denial of truth."

Wow! Not bad for a first read of a few pages!

I can see clearly where I have been the creative, the neurotic and for short moments even the psychotic in this journey. Mostly though I have fallen into the creative's role. My prayer and intention has been for understanding things and seeing things clearly.


These past months have been such a journey and I have only one prayer now: my prayer is to fully let go and recognize that I deserve so much better and so much more than what I even know! My prayer is to be more free tomorrow and that I awaken in joy of a new day with no regrets, no hurts, no more suffering.

My prayer is to awaken free and wild like the wind.